Monday, November 30, 2009

dokter kata...

sofeya and her elder sister balqis kena HFM (hand foot & mouth) disease. :(

untuk cerita selanjutnya sila baca kat sini.

bersempena dah jumpa Dr Khairul, aku pun tanya lah dia "camner budak ni dokter, dia tanak minum formula milk"

lalu dokter pun berkata "then that's tough... mmg susah kalau mcm tu."

adehhh... sungguh ler jawapan yang tidak memberangsangkan..

dokter kata.. top up dgn makan ler byk2. kalau dah dia tak nak sgt nak buat mcm mana. he said "she's a clever girl kan.. mmg tak nak minum susu lain"

mmg ler clever sgt.. clever nak suruh aku pump and pump jugak susu supaya aku maintain kurus muakakaka.

anyway since mulut dia penuh ulcer skang.. dia agak kurang nyusu. sampaikan pagi tadi nenen aku bengkak.. dpt ler aku pump 4 oz :)

so i tot to myself.. ada la hikmah.. time2 cenggini dpt la aku kompol stok susu kan?

NOOOOOOOOOO...

tadi thari aku tepon, maid aku cakap dah habis 2 botol ni.. nak ambik tak susu beku?

bih tu..takkan nak bior anak aku kebulur kan?

ambik ler...

dah ler.. aku nak pump..

doakan kejayaan aku.. ewah.. cam nak ambik exam la plak..muahahha

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

My status update

terasa mcm nak update keje kat ofis la plak... iskkk..

well it has been about a week plus since i was (and still) struggling to maintain my daily milk supply.

so far :

- frozen stok increase to 3 bottles! (yeahaaa!!)
- sofeya still refuse to take FM. dah try isomil, mamil gold and enfagrow. dah try in cup, normal bottle (MLO bottle) and avent bottle. semua TAK MO.
- now she drinks on avg 9 oz (3 x 3oz).
- malam dia belasah gayut habis2an hingga ke titisan terakhir!

hmmmmmmmmmm...

maid cakap actually susu cam tak berapa nak cukup.. but since dia sungguh2 tak mo FM, so maid top up dgn food. kasik makan byk sket so that dia kenyang.

yg bestnyer bila aku offer FM.. sungguh2 dia tolak.. "no no no no no!!!" sambil geleng2 kepala...

sgt comel and pandai. sib baik cakap "NO" jer.. buatnya dia cakap "No thank you.." mmg aku instantly jadik penyokong kuat susu ibu, tak kasik dah baby lain minum FM suruh minum susu badan jer sbb jadik pandai sgt! :P

maid said mebbe tunggu a while klu nak introduce FM balik.. pasal the last time, sofeya cam trauma.. sampai EBM pun dia tanak minum.. gitu la plak...

so skang ni nak tak nak mmg aku postpone buat segala benda yg requires me to leave her (except work lah). nak pegi buat rambut aku pun dah berminggu2 aku postpone!

heran btul la budak nih.. kot la nak jeles tgk cousin2 dia minum susu ke apa.. kot la nak rebut botol ke apa.. tidak pun... aku jenuh la dok provoke dia "tgk tuhhhh... fatiyah (cousin sebaya) minum susu sedappppp.. mintak skettt" boleh pulak sofeya geleng2 kepala "no no no no no"

either mmg hang ni tak suka nak berebut (i doubt!!!) or my milk is super duper yummylicious...:)

but bila balqis minum milo dia sibuk nak berebut! hmm.. maybe i can introduce FM yg perisa coklat eh? tapinyer takut dia berak keras pulak.. hmmm...

suddenly blog ni dah tak mcm BF punya blog eh? hehheheheh



wat look look?? sukati aaa nak minum susu mama!!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Calling for HELP

"Calling for HELP" is the phrase that my balqis love to use nowadays... like nak bukak-tutup suis lampu yang dia tak sampai.. she will yell "mommy!!! calling for help!!!"

sigh....

and now i am desperately calling for all the help i need.

been struggling in keeping up with the daily EBM intake for sofeya. i have only TWO frozen stock (4 oz each) left.

last week met her paed and he suggested to give her isomil (soya based FM) since budak ni inherit asthma from her parents. but dr khairul said other types of FM also can, but good one lah.. (expensive ones!). so he gave isomil and dumex mamil gold sample to try.

saturday nite aku dgn Mr P pergi wedding, left sofeya at home so I asked maid to give her isomil. as expected, the little girl TAK MO.

ok.

i tot maybe time tak kena.. coz mlm2 she normally nak nenen direct.

so yesterday (monday) i asked maid to try again.

semlm balik keje, maid report. "kasihannya budak niiiiii..... menangis2 tak nak susu botol. tolak2 dgn tangan.. keluar air mata berjurai2.. saya pun nangis tgk nya.. saya bagi susu mama (EBM), terus habis 2 botol"

aduhaiiiiii...

aku mental block.

bukan aku tak nak kasik EBM lagik, but im just preparing for worst case. utk sehari dua ni Insya Allah cukup lagi bekalan.. after that??

aku pump gila2 now. like pagi tadi aku pump at 2 am. guess baper byk aku dapek????

1.5 oz

for 15 mins okeh.

lepas tu kuar angin jer.

hati pun sakit. tetek aku pun sakit. sighhhhhhhh

am gonna try to give her dumex mamil plak esok. tgk cemaner. kalau dia reject jugak, then aku mmg betul2 buntu.

yes of course meanwhile aku terus jugak pump..

tolong la!!!!!!!!!

Friday, November 6, 2009

aku bingung. aku tak tau nak buat mcm mana. i dunno wat is happening to me.

my frozen stok dah tinggal less than 15 bottles.
yet my daily pumping tak menghasilkan enough supply for the daily intake.
thus now, daily mmg harus ambik frozen stock.

on this rate, in less that 2 weeks, i will have to start introduce formula milk to sofeya.

best thing yet, i am not doing anything to remedy the situation.
all the stuff i have been merapu in this blog, haram satu aku tak buat.

makin kurang ader la aku pump kat ofis.

dari 3, pas tu 2. hari ni sekali jer aku pump.

dunno wats happening to me.

cant believe the day is finally coming, the day i dread the most. the day that i have to introduce formula milk to sofeya.

selama ni aku ingat aku kuat. aku buleh buat... at least till she is 2 y.o.

she is only 16 mths. lama lagi.

yg best, even tho pump sekali... ingat kot dpt ler byk sbb rasa mcm dah bengkak giler.  alih2 4 oz jer... hek elehhh.. kot2 8-9 oz ke semangat la jugak aku nak pump lagi...

salahkan susu la plak... lempang diri sendiri kang.

tah la

emo sgt2 unstable.

kepala otak lagi la berterabur

hidup sgt tak de arah.